Suicide tattoo

I was 16 when I first tried to commit suicide by cutting. After that I would cut for “release”. I went threw a lot before I was diagnosed. In 2015 they ran the semi colon tattoo campaign. It brought me into getting my own semi colon tattoo. I chose to get one in a infinity symbol because hope is eternal. My story never ends. My tattoo was done by Eldrick at Sin on Skin in Halifax, Nova Scotia. I’ve been going to Eldrick for all my tattoos since 2009. After again trying to commit suicide last January, this tattoo has become even more important to me. It reminds me that no matter how hard things get to never give up, to keep going. Hope is eternal  ❤


Birth control joys

I was 13 when I first started birth control pills. I started them to help clear up my acne. They were great minus all the pills I forgot to take and all the headaches the estrogen caused.

My next birth control attempt was when I was 15. I tried the birth control patch. It was better minus the fact that everyone kept asking me if it was “the patch” (meaning Nicoderm). Eventually I had just got my sister to write “the patch” on it and everyone stopped asking. The second bad thing to happen with this is it caused terrible stomach pain, the patch had caused my uterus to expand.

My next birth control choice was when I was twenty one and it has to be the worst birth control choice of my life. The Depo shot. The Depo shot sounded great, go in every three months, get a shot, no estrogen. Only it was so much more. After my first shot I bled continually for three months. Not a heavy bleed, just enough to need a liner. Then after being on it for a year and a half I noticed that I gained 40 pounds! After being on it for two years I was told the only way I could have kids was threw ivf. After that I started to get really sick, headaches, stomach pain, throwing up all the time. Once I had stopped the Depo shot it took me two years to get a full period. I honestly wouldn’t reccomend the Depo shot on my worst enemy.

Now being 29, having been married for six years I can tell you that condoms are a mood killer. So that brings me to the next birth control I am going to try. Mirena or IUD for short. I go to my gyno next week to talk about it. I’m hoping all the rave reviews are right.

Now wether you want kids (just not right now). You’re a teenager or you just don’t want kids period. Sex can be amazing as long as you as protected. Safe sex is the best kind of sex.



Always and Forever, Lara Jean Review

So I just finished Always and Forever, Lara Jean today and I loved it. Jenny Han did a amazing job with this concluding novel.

Lara Jean is 17 and a senior in highschool. This is the year where everything changes. Along with her boyfriend Peter, Lara Jean has it all planned out. She’s going to go to the local University with Peter and spend the next four years loving life. Only that’s not what happens.

When Lara Jeans plans are derailed she must learn to carve a new path, maybe even a better one. This book will have you laughing and just cheering for Lara Jean and her family. Easily a 5 star read!

24h readathon tbr

Hey lovelies,


Tonight at midnight into Saturday at midnight I will be doing a 24 hour readathon. I hope to complete two books during this readathon. They are;


City of Bones by Cassandra Clare and Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco. If I finish those two books and still have time in the readathon I will move onto Scythe by Neil Shusterman.

I will be hosting reading sprints on my Twitter@readbytanya. Feel free to follow me on Twitter and join in on the action. 20180209_144739

February tbr

For February I picked 8 books to read.


1) Dear Martin by Nic Stone

2) The Orphans Tale by Pam Jenoff

3) Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by JK Rowling

4) Crown of Midnight by Sarah J Maas (which I will be reading next month with a friend)

5) Simon vs the Homosapiens Agenda by Becki Abertallie

6) City of Bones by Cassandra Clare

7) Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco

8) Scythe by Neil Shusterman


I will be giving my thoughts on these books in my February reading wrap-up




Winter biannual bibliothon

Hello! Welcome to readbytanya, my name is Tanya.

Today we will be going over the books for the Winter biannual bibliothon hosted by a bunch of different Youtubers on instagram, Twitter and YouTube. There was 6 challenges, I’ll go over each one and the book I chose to go along with it.


1 read the group book (Otherworld) which I didn’t do

2) read a book under 200 pages. I chose The Cellar and HATED it! Its suppose to be a psychological thriller but to me it was just boring.

3) read a book about mental illness. I chose Girl, Interupted. Which I read on my Kobo. It’s about a girl who has borderline personality disorder and ends up in a psyc ward. I’m really enjoying it, I just wish the chapters were longer

4) was to read a sequel. I chose Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters. I’m almost finished. I have 100 pages left and I’m really enjoying it

5) read a book mentioned in some other form of media. It could be a book, a movie or tv show. I went with Emma by Jane Austen. It was mentioned in Gilmore Girls

6) Read a book that you know nothing about. For this one I doubled up and used The Cellar.


Review for The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas

THUG is a amazing story that everyone should read. I wish high schools would pick it up and add it to there curriculum.


Starr Carter is a 17 year old high school student living in a predominately black neighbourhood who just happen to attend a alomst all white private school on the other side of town. Starr lives two lives, her home life where she can be herself along with her brother Seven, and her school life where she has to act perfect because everyone is already racial profiling her.

One night Starr is driving around with her best friend and they are pulled over by police. Starr then witnesses her best friend being shot and killed (while being unarmed) by police. Star then has to try and do her friend justice at the trial.

This book is a major wake up call. Angie is a fantastic debut author and deserves credit and praise for her writing.